Shaikh Taufiq

thank you dear
for treating me well
as i have treated you

i have held you tight
even through the night
and you never put up a fight

you have taught me well
and listened to my woes
every single time, never complaining

i missed you
and i will miss you
long after today

through the happy times
through the hard times
you’ve been with me through it all

now it’s time for us to part
its time for me to let you go
don’t miss me dear

i won’t be seeing you again
you’ll be with another
another lover

i have cared for you
keeping you clean and healthy
its true

why does it need to end
so abruptly
so quickly

but its alright
i’m not complaining
i won’t tear for you

don’t be surprised
don’t be alarmed
but the truth is
i have another waiting….
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at home.

thank you dear laptop
you have served me well in the barracks.

the inspector rank for the number 1 and 2 was given yesterday and when i got it, it took a while for it to sink in that it took me 10 months to get that, what i had set out to get from the beginning. it felt like an achievement by itself, a sense of excitement and fulfilment…

i stared at the rank for a few minutes, gazing and thinking at the same time, without the rest knowing how it feels for me to achieve this…if only they learnt to appreciate the rank as much as i did…

there was a farewell party held by the junior OCTs and i guess its a bit short but hey i applaude them for their effort…here are some pics…

those are the t-shirts that they ‘designed’ themselves and gave it to us…haha…me and wenshen both have two ’stars’…lol

that’s how we ate dinner…all of us sitting together, with JT and jinhong entertaining the trainers…the rest of us were totally not interested in entertaining them…especially me after what had happened…”the blinker” was trying to entertain us with some of his lame-ass jokes about one of us…its not funny anymore…we were all waiting for them to go off actually…the food wasn’t something to look forward to since its essentially mess food…

then they had a short speech or something to say to the senior squad, the trainers. “the blinker”, as usual, trying to be funny and stuff…not so funny when he’s talking to you one on one with no attempt to try and reason what happened…anyway, uncle was so funny…he’s always the best person to me…”mr. right” had a bloody long speech about i don’t know what, i was just trying to count the number of times he said ‘right’…then the  clinton wannabe said something short…alright…

i had them juniors of mine, Zulhilmi and Weihong to sign my shirt since they didn’t do that when they gave it to me…rocks man…here’s a pic of it…

i want memories from this place because i have a lot of them in my head and not in pics…and i will forget over time…

here’s a pic with me and cheng jin…he’s a great guy as i eventually found out…i initially thought he was like min sheng cuz he always asked for the pocket books…which pisses me off cuz i never do them on time…but when i got to know him better, he’s a rockin’ guy with lots of character…and he has a snubby nose…lol…looks like a stuffed toy or something…

alright so the shit has already hit the fan and i have lived through it…again…just like the last time man…wheew…the past hours have been great…i guess it takes a big event such as the one that just happened to wake me out of this illusion that i can only depend on myself for my happiness and start living life day by day…

and i feel great now that that’s happened…its so great to have a great group of friends to just hang out and talk to…of course you need friends who can relate to you and have the same frequency of thinking…whether its all the time or sometimes…

i might have just found that group…

ahh….the coming days to POP…where the days grow longer and the sweat flows harder…it is amazing, the challenges we have to face once we’re nearing a certain checkpoint…the challenges that are so unexpected but somehow just falls on your lap. amazing. and what is truly amazing is that if you fumble and screw up on any one of these challenges, all your past achievements are easily forgotten.

are we humans all like that? is it just human nature? is this how we were brought up to be? does everyone NOT make any mistakes? this world is not fair, i have learnt. but i have also realised that there is a reason for everything. will it make us better? or bitter? that choice has to be made by us. we have to decide what is best for us and decide.

i choose to be better. i made that stupid mistake and became bitter for a while…but i believe in the law of attraction and i truly believe that being better is way better than being bitter. life’s too short to complain about the people who make your life miserable. it is so worth it if we just look at the better side of people and just appreciate them for what they are and their strengths.

take God out of the picture, life’s not fair.

put God in the picture, life is so much better.

i dont know whether to be angry at myself or at other people…guess who got the sword of merit? Glamis and xianyang…the first is truly correct and he totally deserves the sword…the second…is the total opposite.

i really dont know what to say anymore…congratulations to sword winners i guess…especially to glamis…you damn right deserve it dude…JT, congrats to you too man…i mean…you are getting the sword…and the amount of work you’ve done for us is great…

shit i need a girlfriend…NO I DONT!! i think i need one…no i dont…no i dont…